Bob,
By no means do you cause any distress among us. It takes determination to see things thru and you just happen to have it. I hope you can achieve what your trying to do.
Don't let this drag you down physically. I'm sure they appreciate what your trying to do for them.
I don't know who the XO was at that time, but he is the one that has to think about what he did, or didn't do. He knew his responsibilities and if he ignored them or did them half assed, he'll be the one that carries all that to his grave. We know what went on. Only the ones that crossed the perimeter and did the daily missions know what actually went on.
Anyway, Bob, concentrate on getting well.